For the first time in 3 years I have nothing to keep my focus, and I am forced to reflect. It’s like having an unwelcome guest that I must entertain. In this silence there is a lot of noise (so postmodern).
Last night I informed my mother our God is different. Mom sighed and said in a high pitch voice ‘ok’, and I am certain she will pray for me.
My concern has always been how I and many others have done church, how misrepresented a good God is today. Also, the personal relationship thing, how can this be without dialogue? God and I should be able to converse, others have, why not me?
33 years in the church, 10 in full-time ministry, 20 years since I answered an altar call. I don’t think I know God.
Today I read this “whatever we may seem to be doing or however far we may seem to be from the mark, we are really searching for God.”
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Love this. . keep pondering brother. . God can handle our thoughts, questions and emotions. . He can and I believe, longs to hear from us. . .
I marvel at the faith of others these days, I find it so difficult to believe and act as they do. I deeply sympathize with your sentiments. I’m not even sure what it means to ‘know God.’ One thing I have come to ‘believe in’ is community, and this has absolutely nothing to do with church.
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